Forgive me, for all the things I did but mostly for the ones that I did not.
ok so reasons why you should remember that kevin day is more than exy and drinking himself to death with vodka take notes
- um?? he suffered years of trauma and abuse and has anxiety attacks which is WHY he feels he needs the vodka
- he loves history so much that he actually wanted to open up to his team about it and then his team told him to shut up about it so kevin felt bad and never talked about that passion of his ever again like :)) im bitter as fuck
- he literally hates the music at eden’s twilight, but tolerates it for andrew. like!! my boy loves classical music!! but he goes where his friends ask him to go and doesnt complain about the music probably because he knows how he feels to have someone shit on something he loves and doesnt want to do that to others :)))
- my boy didnt even drink before he met the monsters so consider that as well like :) anyway im emotional about that
- he loves the color red so much even though it doesnt look good on him like he probably doesnt care and i just love it??
- suffered under the weight of knowing he had a father, and just did not know how to reach out? imagine the fucking pain of dealing with that!!! and how he learns to reach out, and how he makes an effort to have a relationship with him. kevin actually finds the time to be happy with wymack!! a concept!!
- also kevin day is desperate for friendship dont tell me otherwise and i bet after the trilogy he and nicky become a lot closer now that andrew has neil and theyre kind of separate from the rest of the group. kevin craves affection
- anyway i love kevin day
just had a dream that I drank 40 litres of vodka, entered a horse race and won.
I should specify that I entered not as a jockey but as a horse
were you physically a horse or were you a human entering as a horse? did you have a jockey?
i was a human entering as a horse, no jockey, just me running like the fucking wind
I Don’t Know How Much Vodka I Put In This But I’m Going To Drink It Anyways: a memoir
i love that stage of being tipsy where youre completely coherent and know exactly whats going on but you feel so loose and free at the same time and your typing skills blow but you can feel the blood flowing throughout your entire body and its just warm and fuzzy and nice and amazing
Anonymous said: drunk kaz headcannons???
- happens very rarely since he’s not one to relinquish control over himself
- there are two (2) types of drunk kaz, ok. the one that consumes his liquor to forget, to numb, to fade into oblivion—this one sits alone in dark, abandoned safe houses and drinks hard liquor promptly so he doesn’t remember the way his heart ached before he drowned it in alcohol and passed out
- but there is also (eventually) the type that drinks in the company of the others, the one who probably doesn’t realize he’s drunk at first because he feels so light and free
- this one won’t admit it but he’s having fun and he thinks everything jesper says is funny
- this one thinks wylan’s hair looks like pasta and occasionally reaches out to touch it while wylan’s back is turned, convinced no one can else can see because in his mind he’s totally being stealthy™
- this one doesn’t realize he’s even standing in the center of the room doing card tricks for the other’s amusement
- doesn’t remembering bowing and taking off his hat to playfully collect tips either
- he also talks way too much
- literally can’t shut up. will even talk over nina, he’s uncharacteristically loud, ten times more sarcastic, borderline hilarious. everyone knows it’s about to be story time when kaz is really drunk. he likes to be the center of attention, drink dangling precariously in his hand as he gestures to make every story more dramatic
- he goes off on a tangent a lot. usually everyone thinks he’s out of it when he describes places they’ve never seen, like this infamous lake he keeps bringing up but doesn’t actually exist anywhere near. “it ran along the other side of my house what do you mean it’s not real?”
- “kaz, you grew up in ketterdam. there is no lake like that here.”
- and it’s always inej, sober, aware, protective, that changes the subject. switches him to water before he reveals all of his secrets even if there’s a chance no one else will leave that room with a coherent thought
- she’s also the one that helps him up the stairs to get to bed because she’s worried he’ll fall backwards if she doesn’t.
- and he falls against her with a content sigh like he never wants to move. after a minute she nudges him because her own legs are about to give out trying to support all of his weight. “kaz, are you—please tell me you’re not falling asleep.” (he was)
- kaz hoists himself up with the banister. he’s embarrassed but now inej is laughing and can’t seem to stop
- so now he is, too. and he’s hiccuping, which makes the both of them laugh harder. and suddenly they’re not trying to climb the steps anymore. they collapse midway, inej wiping her tears, kaz holding onto his stomach, still doing those weird, drunk hiccuping laughs
- and if this kills him, it’ll be worth it because that’s the laugh. that’s. the. laugh.
- he loves that laugh and he loves the girl behind it and crap i didn’t say any of this aloud did i? i’m never drinking again
as much as i love kevin days status as resident Vodka aunt (i have a pinterest board just labeled ‘drunk kevin’), lets get this boy some healthy coping mechanisms in the future?? son goes to therapy and learns quality techniques to handle anxiety, learns to trust people (who???) w his problems and can talk about them instead of injecting vodka directly into bloodstream. boy learns to love himself and fight for his happiness and learns he can and does deserve a fulfilling and Good life.
i always get clingy and lowkey sad when ive been drinking why does tihs happej
i went to a creative writing society fancy dress party as kaz brekker and drank cocktails from a wine glass how was ur night
ENDLESS LIST OF FAVOURITE CHARACTERS
⟶ kevin day“I’m going to be the deadliest piece on the board.”
make me choose:
nicky hemmickor kevin day? (requested by @jeremvknox)
“he drinks a whiskey drink, he drinks a vodka drink, he drinks a lager drink, he drinks a cider drink” student life
